Draw of the Crowd

Dear Doris

Her name was Doris - if I remember correctly. It was just last night, but brain overload prevents proper facilitation and correct function of said organ. I’m not sure who or what she was or even why she is what she is. She certainly wasn’t an Indian and I am not sure what she had to do with Indians or baseball or any of the other activities that were taking place. But she was a very good entertainer. She seemed to be some sort of dinosaur, with a turquois tail and head, and soft dog-like paws.

Otto was also there. Not sure what or who he was either. And then there was Mr. Recycleman…or something close to that name. He was a super hero with a mask, cape and dancing shoes. Again, the brain isn’t working well enough to remember the correct names, but his job was also to entertain, as well as encourage recycling, I assume. He did both.



Otto

We were at a Spokane Indians baseball game; and it had been long enough since I had attended any sporting events such as this, that I was clueless to a lot of the activities that were going on and the meanings behind them.

Do they still call costumed icons like this mascots? I don’t think so. I don't know; I thought mascots were supposed to fit the theme of the name of the team. These were more like cheerleaders to liven up and entertain the crowd. They did a really good job at it, too.

I was tired and I hadn’t really wanted to attend. But there is one thing I like less than the thing I hate most – that being driving Highway 95 to the city of my youth – hated more, is turning down an opportunity to be with my son.  So, when I found out he had a ticket available for me, too, I just couldn’t say no.

After already being in town and experiencing a less than successful day, I was headed slowly home, via the backroads trying to decipher the texts that were coming in. Am I going or not?  I kind of wanted to know before I got all the way home.  No such luck. Strike one. I had just walked through my front door, when I got the text. “Yes, stay in town, and we will have dinner before we go to the game.”

“I’m already home. But I will brush my teeth and be there as soon as I can”, was my reply. So I did an about face and headed back in - a bit revived, but barely. I met my son for a lovely dinner and conversation. With his busy schedule, there hasn’t been much time for that, and I relished the time to catch up.

Then on to meet the others so that we could head to the game. I’m sure I wasn’t the best company. What had started with a crummy night in ER, had moved directly into morning light with what felt like a little red devil with horns and a sharp pointed pitchfork stirring a smoldering fire just to see what kind of additional chaos could be brought to the smoke that was already present and suffocating all comfort or joy. My brother used to describe things like this as “Chinese Torture”, where nothing is really so bad on its own, but the build-up and continual occurrence of small annoying things finally take their toll on ones emotions and physical strength. Such was the case for me on this day. A sleepless night, waking to a choking horse; interruptive phone calls due to prior negligence of a hired party; lack of understanding and ability to communicate; grasshoppers (yes, I know they could have been locusts! Thanks for the encouragement!); a continued lack of much needed rain and more appointments in town led to my overload. And I failed. Big time! We all know where failures land in the grand scheme of things…at the top of the list, undoing everything that ever might have been done right.

Whatever. Sorry if that sounds like a pity party. I am describing my mind set of the day for a reason. I’ll get to the good stuff in a minute.

So, that brings me back to why I was less than good company on this particular day, at this particular event. We headed into Spokane with what I thought would be plenty of time, but I was wrong about that too. We missed the National Anthem. Now I don’t like being late, but I really don’t like missing what I view as one of the most important things of the entire event. Strike two.

We settled into our seats, and I was kindly offered the outside seat because someone remembered my claustrophobic issues in stadiums such as this. It was a very pleasant environment though. The seats were comfortable, the temperature right, and the crowd was very respectful, and upbeat.

But I was tired. Truthfully, I still didn’t feel like being there. I am always quiet at times like this. And tonight I simply didn’t have the energy to participate. In fact, I fell asleep for roughly the 4^th 5^th and 6^th innings. I remember the 7^th Inning Stretch. So, I know I at least woke up for that, but I didn’t feel well enough to stand and stretch. I must have periodically been awake throughout the game because I remember watching in pure amazement, as I saw my son fit into this crowd. He was a pure joy to be around. He joked with the mascot/cheerleaders and took photos of the field. He took part in the ever prevalent “high-fives” which were continually moving throughout the stadium. He took charge and got me Band-Aids from the appropriate source when I complained of the blisters on my feet, and the healing toe that I had stubbed once more by kicking into the railing when I tried to sit down. He joined in the chants of the crowd, when prompted by what some might consider silliness. It was silliness, but he made it fun and it was an essential part of this experience of American hometown baseball. He enjoyed absolutely every moment, of every facet of this event. He teased the people we were with, and made each of them laugh. He bought drinks, and kettle corn, and made sure everyone had exactly what they needed to be comfortable. “Red Vine!” He shouted. "Coming right up", was the answer. And most of all, he let me sleep!!

Now truthfully, in spite of my mood, I was paying close attention to what was going on around me…the game, not so much. But the environment created by the employees, was above and beyond the call of duty. I could tell these people really were enjoying their jobs. They were not just acting. I watched Doris, and Otto and Mr. Recycle Man work the crowd. They signed autographs and stood for photos with fans. They laughed and danced and catered to every need.  They gave special attention to the little kids, and old people, but they really lit up when a handsome, strapping, 22 year old male joined in their fun. I am sure a response from those of this age and gender made them feel they were accomplishing their assigned task and doing it really well. One thing I have learned over the years, encouragers need encouragement too. My son had grabbed their spark and fanned the flame.

At some point Doris came over to interact with my son and his friends. She came over and specifically targeted the two males in our group. They all got a good laugh, but apparently Doris hadn’t had enough. She pretended she was leaving and then came back for more, catching them both off guard. The three of them had some good fun. I watched from the corner of my eye, but avoided all eye contact. I didn’t want to get drawn in where I had to put a fake smile on my face and pretend I was having fun.  Instead, I feigned interest in the game. But I suspect Doris saw through my façade, and just when I thought she would be leaving, she snuck around behind me and then sat down on the step next to me. Slowly and quietly, without her previous fanfare, she gently touched my shoulder to let me know she was there. I looked over, and tried to smile. She ever so slowly raised her paw, as if for the traditional high-five I mentioned earlier that travels among entertainers, vendors and fans. But I quickly learned she wasn’t intending a high-five slap. Returning her gesture in an attempt to be polite, our hands connected and I sensed she understood. I don’t mean for that to sound corny, or creepy, or new-agey, or anything like that. It was simply a soft, tender touch. Maybe because of my sensitivity of the day, (I had cried buckets); maybe because of my continued and desperate failures of the day, she could sense my despair and wanted me to know she understood. No “in your face”, “get with the program”, “change your attitude and quit bringing others down” lecture. She knew enough, cared enough to simply meet me right where I was at. Nothing out of bounds in what she did. No foul balls. Just an intentional, but warm touch that said “I see you and it’s my job to make things better and fun…for each and every one that is here”.

She did her job well. Though, I initially didn’t want her to, she did what she is supposed to do and she did it without condemnation, and without any self-righteous attempt at glory. I don’t know who Doris was supposed to be. Haven’t a clue about Otto, or Mr. Recycleman. What I do know is they are all simply a part of the atmosphere someone took great strides to create.  It was in the air and it was contagious.

That’s what I took away from the Spokane Indians game. I can’t say enough about the attitude created among the employees and entertainers that “work the crowd”.  They are the atmosphere. They are the joy. Dare I even say, they might be the draw of the crowd to the game?

I don’t know. Our team lost; but between my son, and Otto, Mr. Recycleman and dear Doris; someone hit a Grand Slam.

 

"You're Gonna Miss This"...

Oh Shiny!

That’s the punch-line to a joke my son tells. I don’t remember the whole joke, but it’s about someone with ADD who gets distracted while saying something else. It’s a funny joke…wish I could remember it. But that is kinda how this post is going to be. Sidetracked; punch-lines first; rambling; things that don’t fit; in fact, it might seem a little ADOS (Attention Deficit...OH SHINY). But I wasn’t sure how else I would get anything written if I just didn’t sit down and ramble. It is kind of how my life is right now…not ADD, but scattered.

So here goes.

"Roses Roses". It was an Avon fragrance from a long time ago. Maybe from the 1970’s. I’m not sure; maybe Avon even still has it. But I picked up the book, weathered with age, and the fragrance wafted from its pages…"Roses Roses". I knew immediately the scent. I wore it, my mom wore it.  I think my grandma wore it, too. I loved the soft, gentle reminder of days gone by. Days that were much simpler, at least from here it seems they were more simple. It doesn’t feel like that anymore to me.  An old book, and an old scent…aaaahhhh, nice.

TRACE! You came, we saw, you went! It was a treat. I was not disappointed. You’re Gonna Miss This made me cry. Heck, it even makes me cry as I write this. It was beautiful. The younger two with me, didn’t quite get the tears, but someday they will. And then extra special for me was the song you sang which you told us, you didn’t intend to sing; it wasn't on your playlist, "but it sounds pretty good in this old building, so I wanna do this one.” And you did. It was sooo, soooo, beautiful. The acoustics - yeah, they must have been just right, but oh what a voice! I wonder if everyone got that. I wanted to stand for an ovation at the end. But everyone remained seated, so I did, too. That isn’t like me, is it? Today, I don’t even remember the name of the song. But thank you, Mr. Adkins! One can easily tell you love to sing. The concert was perfect. But we never made it to Arlington, or “…Fishin’. Next time, ok?

 

Wedding bells…no such thing anymore, I don’t think. But we attended a beautiful wedding of a long-time friend. My son and the groom grew up together. Where did the time go? I was pleased we were all counted as witnesses; and it was especially nice Matt could be a groomsmen.

Sold something for someone that takes a load off of me. Everyone happy all the way around.

I saw the first snake I have ever seen on our property in the 11 years we have been here. Yes, I screamed. Pretty sure it was just a little garter snake, but snakes call for screams, regardless. Oh and the grasshoppers this year!! And in June!!  NOT normal!! But neither has April, May, or June been normal. At least that which has been normal for the last 30 years, or so….Maybe we are having an old-fashioned spring and summer. This is what it felt like when I was a kid...

I do continue to write my "political" blog; and I have tried to keep up with the news. I comment on Facebook more often than I should, I suppose. I'm not trying to change anyone's mind who is set in their ways. But I do hope I can influence someone who is on the fence. That's what we used to do as citizens. It was called "public discourse". And it encouraged thought, knowledge and conversation. Seems like I am only making enemies. I don't understand that.  I can easily separate someone who disagrees with me and hold no hard feelings. I even have friends that are Democrats!  ;-) Not everyone can do that, I guess. That is what surprises me. Just another way of keeping us all silent, I guess. Shhhhhhh, don't offend anyone! I really don't understand the silence. I don't think it is time to sit down and be quiet yet.

My menagerie is beginning to feel a bit like the “funny farm”. These animals are definitely keeping me busy. Bullet won’t let me sleep past sunrise. The moment the morning light comes through that window, he is by my side whining and pawing at me until I get up to let him out for potty and then back in for feed. Bella, at 13, still jumps around like a pup and like I am the most important thing in her life. (I am.) Navajo continues to heal (I think); but with a minor set-back now and then. Funny how she wants me most when she doesn’t feel good. Finally figured out Juliee does the same thing. As I went out to feed her, she followed me around like a little lost puppy dog…she bumped me and when I stopped, she buried her head into me and stood quietly. I looked down because of the behavior that was so different for her. She had a chunk out of her hoof…and it was hurting her just a bit. This dry, old spring and summer is drying out my horses hooves, even though I do let the water trough run over to add some moisture to the ground. We will see Jake tonight. I just want to be sure it’s all ok. Juliee counts on me to do it right…and I love her.

TOBI!! You funny, "high maintenance women" you!! I got the best laugh when after feeding her one evening, and I had moved on to tending to Navajo in another pasture…(ok, it was my yard – I have been letting her in my yard so that she will have enough tender grass due to her choking issues.) But I digress. As I was tending to Navajo, Tobi suddenly realized Navajo was getting special attention. She realized Navajo may have even been getting some special food that she was not getting. She looked up from what she was eating, turned her head our way with a piece of hay hanging from her mouth and looked at me in total shock. If she could speak, I am sure she would have said “HMMMMMM???” It is certainly what her expression said. I laughed at her – right out loud! And then I laughed again. It was so comical.

The sun beat hot on my leg. The window was rolled down simply to experience summer. I was in the diesel, so I could have used the AC if I had wanted. As I sat at yet another red light, the heat on my leg reminded me of a sensation I haven’t experienced in a long, long time. The days of my youth. One of the most important things I enjoyed for relaxation, when I was young, was a day at the beach. My most critical concern was how was I going to get the Coppertone on my back and could I keep the greasiness of it off the book I was reading. The sand was hot, the water cool, the waves lapping and a gentle breeze blowing. The smell of Coconut Oil was in the air, and I loved the sun beating down hot, turning my body red. Yeah, I was always red before I was tan. (I’m Norwegian, you know) And there isn’t a better feeling in the world then the tight skin, and burning sensation, I felt when I had had just enough sun. Not too much so that it was painful, just enough to know I had had some sun.

A special memory for me is when one day, I told my folks I was going to the "Dyke Road". I had mentioned to them earlier, that I sure wished I had a Blue Ox burger from Paul Bunyan. A couple of hours later, there was my folks walking down towards the water with a white bag in my mom's hand. They had brought me a Blue Ox burger and fries! I didn't tell them I had stopped and picked one up myself which I had already eaten. But I didn't fool my mom ; she saw everything when I tried to hide the other white bag (which was now empty) under my beach blanket. Neither of us said a word. And I ate my second Blue Ox, stuffed to the gills. I treasure the memory of my folks doing that for me.

I know I shouldn’t live in the past, and I don’t usually; but I do like my memories every now and then.

As I sat there at that red light, with the sun beating down on my leg, in that moment, if I could have gone back in time, I would have. But the light turned green, and I moved on. However, that hot burning sensation I felt was a great reminder for me to slow down and enjoy the simple moments just a bit more…after all, I know what Trace knows…You’re Gonna Miss This.