Inspired Onward

I have had an ongoing feud with someone for a couple of years now. I am not sure "feud" is the right word. Nor is the word "battle" the right word. It isn't my battle. I don't even know the woman and she doesn't know me. "Feud" according to Webster is defined as "a protracted quarrel; vendetta". It isn't my quarrel, and I don't have a vendetta against her, but maybe she has one against me. "Vendetta" - a hereditary blood battle between two families." Nope. That isn't it. Certainly, no family here....just bad blood.

What it is, I guess, is harassment. A couple years ago, a woman started attacking my husband in the local newspaper. She was saying things in letters to the editor that were not true. She was doing things in the community with obvious lies behind them. When her attacks and lies hit the local paper, I corrected them. I tried to do so politely, as I believe that is always the best way. It became very ugly. Her lies were destructive and mean. My corrections only antagonized her more. What I pointed out was true. She didn't like that and became even more vengeful.

This went on for a few months. Now, over 2 years later, I have to be very careful of this woman. We both follow the same community page on Facebook. I cannot comment on this page without her bringing an attack. She has called me a liar, without character and integrity, and honestly I don't remember everything she has said there. Each time, I defend myself. It is in my nature. It is who I am. I do not let untruths stand. I never have.

Yesterday, the attacks from this woman started again. It had to do with a post of which I was concerned on this local page. I hadn't posted any comments on this page for sometime, due to the fact that I knew this woman, no matter what I would say, would come back at me. She could be in agreement with  me over an issue, but she would still attack. So it was simply easier to "follow" the local news, without commenting.

But the post a few days ago, was important to me. I carefully checked and she had not been there with a "like" or a comment. It had been a couple days since the original post had been made. I thought it might be safe. I thought that maybe it had been long enough that she would feel silly to attack me now. I was wrong. I posted a couple comments and I felt I was having a good discussion with a few of the locals. I tried to be positive and constructive with my comments. The next day, I used the pronoun "we" in one of my posts to express community agreement and involvement over the issue we were discussing. And then BAM all of a sudden she was there!

"You are nothing but a liar, [insert my full name here]." (Something to that effect. I wish I would have "print-screened" the conversation.) "You have done nothing to help this situation and there you are taking credit for all of it. You have no character or integrity."

I responded of course; politely, but telling this woman to leave me and my family alone. I told her, I stay away from her posts and comments and I expected the same respect from her. I told her she didn't even know me or anything that I had done over the years to support my community, even if I hadn't been involved with this particular issue one on one. In my opinion, bringing any awareness at all, is to help. I politely told her that.

Back she came, with something like "You are a liar. And there is no one I know in [insert name of state] with less integrity than you." Again not a direct quote, but the essence of her statement.

 "Where have I lied, D?" I responded. "Please tell me and everyone reading here exactly where I have lied."
 

She didn't answer my question. Instead she edited her previous post to look less like an accusation and like it fit better into the conversation with her new edit.

I wasn't surprised. This woman had done that before in my dealings with her. She is above nothing to make me look bad and herself look righteous. She is constantly attacking and belittling people - not just me, but anyone who she perceives as someone who is opposed to her. It doesn't even have to be someone who disagrees. We actually hold the same opinion on the issue. At least her stated opinion, but her actions actually show otherwise. It is like she is working for the good of the opposing side with her actions. Often times, her attacks on others are condescending and mocking. She likes to appear superior.

As a side note, she seems to me to be well versed in how to publicly attack someone. She knows exactly how to distort the truth, change the answer of the one responding into something that isn't true, and then take everything off the original topic. I have watched her do it time and time again. It is a learned skill. It is a common practice done by those in politics and media to distort and confuse people and the issue. She does it with practiced perfection. I recognized it immediately with any of her dealings. She is akin to a professional antagonizer. It is my belief, she has learned this skill to perfection. Saul Alinsky tactics at work. But back to the issue at hand.

I commented one more time, and actually right now, I can't remember what I said. I think it was another warning for her to leave me and my family alone. I remember, I added something like "You would do well to stay away from me and my family -  in Christian love, of course."

I remember that part of my statement because I intentionally wanted to bring this up. This woman had previously claimed to be a Christian. I guess this statement was a dig at her of sorts. Probably shouldn't have done that, but neither did I want her to be able to use anything I said as a threat. Because I knew she would run with that if she could. This was my final comment. I posted a total of 3 comments. She, of course, had to have the last word.

I honestly don't think I have ever dealt with a more unhappy person. I don't think I have ever had anyone hate me so much or throw about so many baseless and public lies about me. For the most part, things like this are usually like water on a ducks back for me...it runs off and doesn't bother me.

This time, I suppose it was a little different. It had been constant defamation for over 2 years. I had tried to stay away from her. Purposefully never commenting on our local page due to the expectation of her attacks - simply by precedent. I was growing weary of it. And no one came to my defense. No one got involved. No little "likes" to encourage one way or the other. No action from the Administrator or the Moderator of the page. Nothing. Just lies and attacks left to stand.

Eventually the comments were removed by the Administrator of the page, and the complete post removed as well. This is why I no longer have access to the conversation. The woman had upset at least 3 or 4 other people with her attacks on their opinions as well. For some, it had resorted in name calling. I finally privately complained to the Administrator which is why the post was eventually removed. At first the Administrator told me just to "block" this person and that she would block her too. I didn't believe that would happen. Something just didn't feel right in that statement. When I told her that I didn't want to block this person, because then this person would be free to say anything at all about me and my family without my knowledge, the Administrator instead blocked me from the page. Small community. Maybe they are friends; I don't know. I knew I was taking a risk by reporting it. "I don't want any drama", the administrator had said. OK, right. This woman is attacking people left and right, but I am the one bringing drama cause I reported it. No big deal. I can live without this page.

Now, I know when one comments in the public realm, one should expect rude attacks. Sadly, that is what happens in this day and age. (No, I don't think it used to be this bad.) But this was a local page. Surely someone I knew saw the comments. Or even if no one I knew saw the comments, isn't there anyone that would correct her? Interject an opinion about her rude behavior? Maybe say something like "Everyone is entitled to their opinion." Anything?

When I see someone being attacked unfairly, I usually speak up. A polite caution. or maybe only a "like" just to encourage the one in the heat of the battle. That is who I am. I am thankful for that. I never want to be the silent one. The motto on my Facebook page is "It isn't words that kill, it is silence." Elie Wiesel - a Jewish man who had lived through the Holocaust. That says everything to me. Never Again!  

Anyway, I decided to write about this today. I guess it bothered me enough, I wanted to express why....maybe not even for the reader, but just for myself. Why did this get to me this time? But in truth, this isn't about me - or at least, shouldn't be. Sadly, this is what we have become.

It's President's Day. Think of our President! He endures this kind of treatment day after day, after day; multiple times a day! Think of that! Think of how exhausting that must be! Those who oppose him were calling for his impeachment before he ever even took the oath of office. Ponder that, please! A constant barrage of lies and threats! "Yes, I have thought of blowing up the White House," from a well known singer. A mock likeness of a decapitated head from a famous comedian. On and on it goes. How does he endure that? His family has been attacked, his wife, his kids; anyone who has shown any support for him has to endure attempts to be brought down. How does anyone not respond to that? I suppose it is the ones that do speak up, that keep him encouraged. It must be a deeply held belief that one is in the absolute right to be able to face the stage and the drama day in and day out and still stay the course.

I don't think the Bible teaches silence. Yes, there were times Jesus was silent and we are to be like Him. "Like a lamb to the slaughter." His willingness to go to the Cross and even actually crawled to get there. His refusal to speak out against those who came for Him. He knew the reason. It was for a purpose. It was for the good of all mankind. Let us NEVER compare ourselves to that! Thank God for that kind of Love!!! We must always seek the full counsel of the Word of God. In the here and now, we are never to let evil succeed, as we sit back in apathy and silence.

We are neck deep in evil today. The slaughter of innocent babies; human trafficking and the refusal to do what needs to be done to correct that situation; the attacks on the Christian faith; the legalization of dangerous drugs; the disrespect for the rule of law; the attack of innocent people; the disruption of truth; the acceptance of moral decadence; the attack on marriage and families; the ignorance of our Constitution...on and on it goes.

And we don't feel it is right to speak up? I don't understand that.

Anyway, I am a tough girl. I know what I am in for when I speak publicly my opinions. I know I will be attacked. It's all good. But I guess I just didn't know I would never be defended.

 

On a personal level, I guess that's what this is about for me. But on the deeper level, I am tired. I am tired of the silence. I am tired of the acceptance - the defeatist attitude that nothing can be done so why try. I am tired of the attacks on that which is good and the acceptance of evil. I am tired of an upside down world. I don't want to be a part of that. I don't want to fall into an acceptance of that. I want to speak. Please, Lord, never be let it said of me that I didn't try.

Out of this - this incredibly ugly woman (yes, I mean that, sorry) - I guess I am inspired, at least I want to be. I hope I will always defend the defenseless and speak about that which is wrong. She will not silence me. She, for me, is the representative image - the exact incarnation-  of that which the world has become and what I want to fight against. That image inspires me to keep the battle and never give up.

Bring on the arrows. I am continuing onward.